5 Month Update... I'm Homesick

Missing home a bit today, this month I’ll be going on 5 months in Atlanta! It’s so crazy how fast time flies. Deciding to move away from loved ones and move away from my life back in Houston has been one of the most amazing yet challenging journeys I’ve been on. I always thought "adulting" and being out on my own would be fun but I never considered that there would be times that I would actually miss home. No longer being able to attend family functions or hit up your friends when you want to go out and even the smallest things like going to your beautician or knowing where to get your nails done lol. You literally have to start all the way over. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE living in Atlanta and I am grateful for the opportunity but there is also no place like home.

Missing out on what's familiar to start over and create a new life definitely puts you outside of your comfort zone and can force you to really evaluate yourself and your dreams. It's so easy to want to give up and go back to what you're familiar to especially when things aren't going how you planned them to go. You question yourself and think is this really worth it? Did I make the right decision? Am I being too ambitious? What keeps me going is knowing that I moved away for a reason, for better opportunity and what gives me hope is knowing that one day this place will feel like home. All of those lonely moments of feeling homesick, and not knowing what's next will all be worth it. And what do I have to lose? If all else fails I still have home to go back to.

I want my blog to showcase my journey of being ambitious, honest and transparent and I wouldn't be any of these things without sharing this moment here. I wanted to share about being homesick so you all would know this is not just a walk in the park or glamorous journey but there are also some times where I want to give up, and that's okay. In times like these I have to remember my "why" and keep chasing after my dreams and remember that home is only a 2 hour flight away lol.

One of the biggest things I’ve learned is to trust the wait and to embrace the uncertainty.  I moved to Atlanta with nothing but hopes and dreams, I had no real plan just ideas in my head that I knew I wanted to achieve. The best way for me to describe my journey has been like chasing a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. You see the rainbow and you know its there and you believe that one day you'll reach the gold at the end but you never know when that day will come. Some days are gloomy and you loose sight of the rainbow, other days you get tired of the chasing something you can't see and want to give up. Even in those times, you know that the promise remains and some day you will reach the gold. I’ve learned to embrace the journey on the way to the gold. Embrace the days when the rainbow is clear as day and even the days when it rains, never allow the flood to sweep you. When there are no plans, when things are uncertain, anything is possible!

"Trust the wait, embrace the uncertainty, enjoy the beauty of becoming, when nothing is certain anything is possible."