A Season of Change

Being that 2017 is halfway over I’ve done some self-reflection on this past year. These last 6 months have literally flown by and so much has happened. As I reflect back to January 1st I can say I am in a complete different spot and have grown tremendously since then! I honestly believe that this is my season of change.

In all aspects in my life things have been changing. Relationships, spiritually, physically, mentally, literally everything, inwardly and outwardly. It seems like each month it’s something new, something shifts or I learn something new about myself and something changes. From big shifts to small.

Relationships:  a lot of people I used to talk to and hang out with I don’t speak with anymore. Relationships have ended, friendships mended and the friendships I have became stronger. My environment has changed and of course it sucks to loose people in life and to find out that not everyone is for you but it is honestly all for the betterment and benefit of you. Be thankful for the people that you have and work towards strengthening those relationships.

Spiritually: this is probably my most important shift thus far, in this last 6 months I’ve learned to be more dependent on God. I feel like I was forced to get to that point within these last 6 months. Distractions from my life had to be removed in order for me to get focused and with that began a closer walk with God. In doubts, in worry, in frustration and uncertainty I learned to be more dependent on him in my time of need. I think it is so great when you get refocused and begin to walk in your purpose. I feel refreshed and renewed, mentally and physically. I look and feel better, there’s a certain glow about me now that wasn’t there before. I was wrapped up in everyone and everything else that I didn’t focus on my well-being and myself. In this time I’ve been reminded to lean on God and to be intentional in all that I do. Everything serves purpose so remain purposeful in all the things that you do!

Inwardly: I feel that I’ve really been blossoming. A lot of the stuff I’ve done now, I didn’t have the courage or the confidence to do before. Mentally I’ve learned to change my mindset and focus on the positive. Not allowing negative things to get the best of me and harboring over feelings and negativity from people. I have worked to train my mind on just being positive and thankful for the things that I have and may not have and just constantly show my gratitude on a daily basis. With this transformation I’ve been going through it really just motivates me to do better and be better. Literally everyday I think what can I do to make me a better me? Whether it’s smiling at every person I see, giving compliments out to strangers, whatever the case may be I just want to be better in all that I do!

Outwardly: With all of the inner transformations it encourages me to change my outward appearance. My physical being, my style, the way I wear my hair I just want newness, I feel like a new person so I want that to reflect in the way I look. I really feel like in this season I have been forced out of my comfort zone in every aspect of my life. I’ve always stuck with what I knew because I was comfortable with it. As far as my style I’ve always dressed cute, kept my hair in the same 2-3 hairstyles and didn’t really want to try anything different. When I go to get my nails done I’ve always chose neutral colors never anything bright or bold. I never stepped out as far as but my outward appearance. I’ve always liked my look and figure why change it?!

If you read my #PrayItForward post you know I was in a car accident last week, and this week thankfully I was able to go and get a new car. My previous cars have always been either white or black so going into the dealership I knew I wanted a car that was either white or black and that is what I told my salesman. I said if it’s not white or black I don’t want it. He tried to persuade me into another color and at first I wasn’t having it. I eventually told him to bring out this car he’s been talking about. So at this point I have 3 cars sitting by me, a white car, a black and the car he recommended. Now the white and black cars were very standard, it had everything my old car had it was just a few years older. The car my salesman wanted me to get was fully loaded and had all these special features. It came with the newer rims, XM-radio, some cool lights on the inside and some other cool features. I could get this car for the same price as the other two the only difference was the color. This car was obviously the better catch but I just didn’t know if I could see myself in this color car. Long story short, I ended up getting his car because it was the better pick so now I drive a red car. I’ve said all of this to say is now I’m seeing shifts in my outward self. Though its something small, I never would’ve imagined that I’d be driving a red car but it has definitely encouraged me to enhance my outwardly appearance from this huge transformation I’ve been dealing with on the inside. Who knows what I might do next but I just know that I am changing everyday and I love the woman I am becoming inwardly and outwardly. I will continue to grow and continue to love on myself and I really hope I can be a light unto others. When you find your purpose, walk in it and watch how you blossom over time.