You Should Be Here

So I recently turned 22 on October 6th and have been celebrating my birthday ALL month. I have been traveling all October, hence the lack of blog posts but I will be posting a recap soon of #Keyanas22ndBirthdayTour.

With turning 22, of course I’m always happy to celebrate another year of life but this year was a little different. I definitely celebrated but it also was a reminder that I’m really getting older. You have monumental ages in life that you anticipate. Like everyone’s excited to turn 16 cause now you’re officially a teenager. Then you have 18 because now you’re no longer 16 and you have more privileges. The next monumental age is the big 2 1, everyone is excited to turn 21 because now you’re officially “grown.”

22 reminds me of those awkward ages that no one really cares about, like 17 or 19. You’re getting older but nothing monumental happens in those years. For me 22 is the same but it’s worst because now you’re really getting closer to “really being grown.”

It’s funny how as kids we have these outrageous plans of how our life is going to turn out. I used to think at 18 I’m going to move out. 21 I’d be graduated and established in my career. 24 I’d be married, traveling the world with my husband and boy is life funny! I met absolutely NONE of the deadlines I set when I was younger. I’m still stuck in this scam of a thing we call college, still instacarting. Still living at home trying to suck up all the free bills while I can and I have two years to find a guy that I’ll call my husband. L O L.

After touring for my birthday (lol, I know. I’m a joke) I felt like I really got a glimpse of what my life should be. Living the lavish life, traveling and being carefree. Living in a nice apartment or loft somewhere, taking business trips and driving around in my Benz. Being this fly business woman I always visioned myself to be. But instead… I am here. Not that my reality is just terrible because I know it could always be worse. But I am here. And I’ve had to remind myself that you should be here.

If it was meant for me to have anything else in my life right now I would have it. I am at the exact place God intended me to be at 22. Now of course there are minor things that I can do to shift my reality (like find a real job maybe lol) and I can work harder towards all of these goals I have. But the overall idea of my life is accurate, I should be here.

Honestly, if I had all of the things I planned out when I was younger, what would I be doing? If I had an apartment in this exact moment, I’d be drowning in bills stressing to find a new job. If I graduated college at this very moment I’d be in an apartment that I can’t afford, still delivering groceries. And married at this time?! I’d be about to drive myself straight into a divorce because I’d be complaining to my husband about all the stresses of life.

Your 20s are definitely one of the most confusing times of your life because you often feel like you should be further than where you are. Of course you should continue to work hard, grow, and learn but live in the moment and live your best life. Enjoy your now and remind yourself that you should be here!

So happy 22nd birthday to me, you are right where you are supposed to be!

Until next time,